Oh, the Humdrum Life

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Making bread today, with lots of eggs, butter, apple jelly, and a splash of cinnamon. We'll see how it turns out. I also used brown sugar instead of white-- out of pure laziness :). I couldn't be bothered to lift that sugar bag down with the flour... I'm so weird...

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On Saturday is my fourth anniversary. I mean 'ours'-- not like yours and mine-- but K's and mine... well, you've got it figured...

The thing that is really foremost in my mind right now is a tad unusual--- you see, I got pregnant with Nev about a week after we got married... and then, two years later, we got pregnant with Know at basically the same time (right after my miscarriage). So, every other year I've gotten pregnant in November-- which ,makes for really cool early Christmas presents every other year.

Not this year...

I'm actually really sad about this. If my last two pregnancies hadn't knocked me flat, then I could be looking forward to another August baby, but, no... no babies for me until K graduates in two years. I try to think about things I can do without another little on the way-- but the truth is that I, badly, want to experience that goddess feeling that is pregnancy. I may be puking my guts out for all nine months with every joint in my body aching, but I love it. It's the only time I ever feel beautiful... even if I can hardly walk because I'm so exhausted and fat...

There are, of course, other reasons why I have to postpone-- no one really knows what effect Zoloft has on a developing fetus... I mean, I would never forgive myself if something happened to my baby because I was on anti-depressants. And, as we know because I ran out of my pills for about a week there, I just can't be off of Zoloft yet.

So, what do I do? I know my family isn't finished. I know that I want to have more kids-- BADLY. So, what do you do when your body has such a hard time of it and your mind needs a steady dose of alien chemicals to keep you from imploding on a regular basis? Do I take the risk that Zoloft isn't as benign as we hope it is? Do I risk an even WORSE pregnancy (as my mid-wives say I seem to be on an escalating scale of worse and worse pregnancies?) Or do I hope that my last pregnancy was a fluke, and that most of the pain was from my depression and that I could actually have an enjoyable experience with it?

But I'm not even really having those options. K has put his foot down, and this isn't something that should become a huge point of contention. So, I guess I'll be waiting another year and a half before we can start trying...

I think I will feel like I have empty arms when August comes around.

I already miss having a baby, with Know being so big...

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I finished it this morning...

My first attempt at sculpture with polyclay!

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I think I have to try my hand at professionalism...

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I've been experimenting this morning with making popcorn balls for halloween-- I've never made them before, so I've been experimenting around. Not having much candy-making experience and no candy thermometer I have had my adventures today!

First I had to learn how to pop popcorn on the stove-- it is soooo fun! Kevin hates the noise, but I just put a little oil in the bottom of a frying pay-- put in a couple grains of corn, once it was hot enough for those to pop I threw in about 1/3 a cup of popcorn, popped the lid on and started shaking! Pretty soon the kernals popped the lid right off the pot-- we added butter and popcorn salt.

Then I experimented with the syrups-- just sugar and water-- first time I didn't get hot enough, and I think I spread it too thin, so the popcorn didn't stick... second time I let it get too hot and it went from hard-ball stage to hard-crack-- at least, they don't stick together and each little popcorn has a hard sweet little casing around it.

Oh, well, we have tons of really sweet and yummy popcorn!

I've been MIA because I have a new research project/hobby. I'll touch on it again when I have photos-- give me a week or so. I'm very excited! Let's just say it has something to do with Alpacas, Tops, and Wefts.

LOL! Curious now?

We switched our furniture around in the livingroom and I like the new layout a lot better. We also got a bed set from my MIL that is for a Queen sized bed-- we have a King-- so I'm using the gorgeous brocade-y burgandy set as... seat covers! The room looks cool. I'll take pics soon and share :).

Kevin is so excited for Halloween. He talks about it all the time. He's going to be a fireman-- which was a big surprise to us, but he decided that's what he was going to be, so we went and got him a costume.

What are you guys doing for Halloween?